“Amazing still it seems, I’ll be 23. I won’t always love what I’ll never have. I won’t always live in my regrets.”
– Jimmy Eat World
Here we go. 23.
Twenty-three years have I witnessed on this beautiful planet earth. Well, more or less beautiful planet. I think us humans destroyed a pretty good amount of it and we keep going – it makes me sad. But that’s another story.
It’s my birthday today! *throws confetti*
I can’t believe it’s that time of the year again.
I don’t like celebrating my birthday. Not because I’m scared of ageing, but rather because I don’t like being centre of attention very much. But I love seeing my friends and spending time with them, so that’s why I invited them over for a little barbecue and chill in our garden.
You may wonder why I chose the Jimmy Eat World quote for this blogpost. Well, it reminds me on my teenage years, when I used to listen to this song a lot. I think I was 15 when I first heard it in the background of a TV Show. And every time I have a deja vu to the time when I was 15. How I felt, how I saw life, how I talked and how I behaved.
I guess, I came a long way since then. I mean, it’s been eight years. I have changed. A lot.
Every thing that I have been through in the past eight years has shaped me into the woman that I am now and I don’t regret anything. Not a single decision I have made, not any friendship I have gained or lost. I think every thing happened for a reason. I have changed into a person, that always tries to see the good in a situation, that always tries to stay calm and just make the best out of it. It helped me to live a healthier life 🙂
I thought maybe it’s interesting for you guys to get to know me a little better.
Well, as for the start – you now know how old I am ;D
People are always very surprised when I tell them my age. I don’t really know why, my friends say it’s because I think and behave like a 40-year-old. Not too sure if it’s a compliment though … 😀
I’m a controversial person. I’m an extroverted introvert. Or an introverted extrovert?
I’m loud and I’m quiet. I’m impatient and I’m patient. I’m chaotic and I’m organised (in my mess). I can be brave and I can also be very shy. I have a weird obsession with Ed Sheeran(‘s music) and also I cannot understand my obsession for it on some days. I’m a weirdo and I’m boring at the same time. Sometimes I like being boring a lot more than being extra unique. Not saying being unique is wrong – it’s not. It’s what makes us different from each other. I have some self-confidence issues, but then again I have faith in myself on so many levels. It’s crazy. I’m crazy. But you know, that’s okay. Because we all are in a way. I love Disney movies so much you could think I just turned three instead of twenty-three. I sing and hum almost the whole day and I annoy people with it – I don’t care, because music is beautiful. I love movies and their scores, I’m that crazy person that stays up all night and watch the Oscars. Netflix is my guilty pleasure and I don’t make a big secret out of it.
I love being alone, but I hate being lonely. I love the loud sounds of the city, but I also love silence. I love the sea, it calms me down, but I’m also very scared of it.
As you can see, there are a lot of things that I don’t understand. I mean, I understand them – I just don’t get why both things apply to me, you know. I guess, we all have those parts in us that are controversial sometimes. I’m not afraid to show them.
Oh and there’s one more thing you need to know about me – I love penguins. I mean just look at them, they’re the cutest!
When I was in London by the end of June, Doris took this picture of me – I sincerely like it (trust me it’s not easy to find a picture that I find decent):
“Darling, just hold my hand. Be my girl, I’ll be your man. I see my future in your eyes.“
It’s here, their day is here.
Can you imagine how excited I’ve been for this day? Well, considering I’ve only know them for a little bit more than a year, it’s pretty unusual to be this excited, but that’s just how it is.
THESE TWO GOT HITCHED TODAY!
Ever since we met online (thanks Nadia for bringing people together!), we got a long really well. These two sweethearts are amazingly talented photographers themselves – check out their website here.
This is an open loveletter to these two, so scroll past this, if you want to see the pictures 🙂
Dear Dominique, dear Robin,
it’s been a year and I’ve been saving your engagement shoot to post on your wedding day.
Do you remember how you first ran past me, because you thought you were late and had me waiting when instead Google maps just fooled you? I do! Your smiles were as bright as the sun, when you recognized me and we hugged for the first time. We then had some amazing burrito bowls (even though we could barely finish them, because it was a lot to eat haha) and you asked me so many questions, because you were so eager to dive into this whole photography thing. I knew, you guys would be huge one day. I knew, you’d make it. I knew you’ll get tons of bookings. And even though it was a long journey to get to the point where you guys are now, I am so proud of you. I’ve never lost faith in you, your beliefs, your values and most importantly – your love for each other.
It was the same thing, when we met again in Aachen and had some more delicious mexican food. I guess, mexican food is our thing then ;D
Thank you for coming all the way to Cologne to meet me for this shoot, have tons of laughs with me, let me take pictures of you and just have a good time. And also that huge gift bag you gave me afterwards – still don’t know how I deserved that one but I still have everything and I lohooove that cup!
I can’t wait to have another burrito bowl with you, when you come back from your little adventure.
P.S. Since I know you made the great choice of picking this Ed Sheeran Song as your first dance, I used it for this blogpost <3
“Everything that touches us, me and you, takes us together like a violin’s bow, which draws one voice out of two seperate strings.”
One of the last weddings I shot for Lynn. I’m not lying, I’ll miss it so much. But this was one firework ending, let me tell you.
Doro and Lukas celebrated their love in a way I preach to all of my couples – by being themselves. The mood of the day was very light, very happy, very loving. It’s hard to find words for something so beautiful, you just have to see for yourself.
I think the biggest surprise of the day, was the minister who held their ceremony. This was probably the best ceremony I’ve ever witnessed. Whenever he read a line that has been in a song before, he would sing the line in the melody of the song. And towards the end he said (and I quote) “I’m sorry, I can’t really sing” and then smashed a cover of Leonard Cohen’s “Hallelujah”. I couldn’t resist but sing with him in silence, it was amazing.
Thank you Doro and Lukas for having us, it was a pleasure. One of your guests found the perfect words: “This is the most relaxing wedding I’ve ever been to.”